i had two bf that i had sex with and got some experience with and still felt nervous and unwanted. they were soft little boys who used me and i used them not to feel alone. to feel something anything. especially after my bio mom died when i was 19. being alone made me cray and angry and sad all at the same time. i am such a whirl wind of emotions most days and my bf has accepted all of it. a part of me wishes we met when i was eighteen but i would not have been desperate enough for him to make the first move and the whole reason we moved from big brother and little sister was because i told him like him at 22.
lots of guys have never held a girls hand before. try and find someone you like that is sweet and treats you well. being inexperienced does not hurt you. if anything it makes you highly valuable. as a woman you have so much power you have not realized yet. i cheated. i went the nearly forty year old gym rat hypersexual daddy dom type with a wounded heart and tragic villain disposition he thinks he is not leaking who happens to be lawyer. oh my god i wrote so much freak fanfic about him and i had not idea how much there was to him but he loves more than he fucks thankfuly.
i got where i am because i was bold and cray and my bf had gotten the ablert einstein line about insanity in my head before we started dating when he cheered me on romantically to try things and take chances. luckily he likes crazy obsessive girls. i do not think you need that much exposure to the deep end. find a college guy that is dorky and sweet and go from there. but know that my parth is an option too lawl.
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u/ShyAngryTiredLost 3d ago
i had two bf that i had sex with and got some experience with and still felt nervous and unwanted. they were soft little boys who used me and i used them not to feel alone. to feel something anything. especially after my bio mom died when i was 19. being alone made me cray and angry and sad all at the same time. i am such a whirl wind of emotions most days and my bf has accepted all of it. a part of me wishes we met when i was eighteen but i would not have been desperate enough for him to make the first move and the whole reason we moved from big brother and little sister was because i told him like him at 22.
lots of guys have never held a girls hand before. try and find someone you like that is sweet and treats you well. being inexperienced does not hurt you. if anything it makes you highly valuable. as a woman you have so much power you have not realized yet. i cheated. i went the nearly forty year old gym rat hypersexual daddy dom type with a wounded heart and tragic villain disposition he thinks he is not leaking who happens to be lawyer. oh my god i wrote so much freak fanfic about him and i had not idea how much there was to him but he loves more than he fucks thankfuly.
i got where i am because i was bold and cray and my bf had gotten the ablert einstein line about insanity in my head before we started dating when he cheered me on romantically to try things and take chances. luckily he likes crazy obsessive girls. i do not think you need that much exposure to the deep end. find a college guy that is dorky and sweet and go from there. but know that my parth is an option too lawl.